im 17 and young. i frown most of the time. im not any famous girl to bitch about.

[okay done. i cut bangs.]
last minute holiday with family. from KL to Genting to KL.
i skipped school today feeling-feeling that as if Msia is an affected country.
i went for dance practice at 230pm.
yeay, my partner is Filkhairi! *wide smile*
yanaa, jealous huh? *kening up down*
haah. i'm tired and feels like quitting school.
k bye.

this is my dearest primary schoolmate, Nasiruddin.
he is the one and only guyfriend that i keep in touch till now.
he called me ytd night and we talk otp for two hours.
and honestly, that's our first call!
he's really different right now compared to primary school days.
he has became more naughty and wild.

he called me up just to talk about this stalker that he get really irritated with.
we first chatted through msn, then he felt like talking otp was a more satisfaction.
wahh, suara abg-abg kaper.
i love talking to him.
we're very open minded, that we can share anything together.

a lot of memories during primary school.
i remember i even had a crush on him during primary 5.
and he did borrow me 20cents to buy a packet of drink after his soccer training.
haah, prangai kental seh.

funny part was before we put down the phone, he still nag about his stalker.
JACKPOT!
his stalker is MY NEIGHBOUR.
like omgg, it is really surprising!

anw, his birthday is tomorrow.
Happy Advance Birthday Friend(:

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oh yes im soo duper happy plus had an enjoyable outing ytd. first stop was vivo. we got irritated with this bunch of guys who followed us the all the way in the mall. we stopped at the information directory and there's an African guy introduce whatever bangle for charity thingy to us except aini. then one of the guys asked aini, "korang nak gi sentosa eh?" aini give a pathetic minah look of hers and look away. i mean guys can never sweet talk with AINI cause she don't and will never ever give shit to all these crap. the guys walk off, and so did us, leaving the african man with his charity thingy.

take away lunch from ljs and went to the rooftop. gawd, it's soo damn hot. yanaa and aini were damn hungry that they ate first while amira and i left our food and went to camwhore instead. make our move to orchard. on our way to the mrt, i had this blur eye vision. from far, i saw this hot guy and two of his friends. as they walked passed, i heard they called out my name surprisingly. i turned and saw Khai waved and I smiled back. But then yanaa said it wasn't Khai who called out my name btw. it was two other friend of him. i don't think i recognised them? kk skip!

we went to wisma to check out cotton on and cotton on body. then headed to far east. i bought earrings while aini bought her fried mars bar she's craving for so much. our plan was to chill at esplanade. we were super duper excited that we stop at douby ghaut instead of city hall. wth? so we planned of walking. urgh. damn tired siaa. yanaa feet had blisters so we went to 7 eleven and bought plasters. we knew it's gonna take a lot of time walking. aini suggested we took a cab but it's a waste of moneyyy. amira saw hotel 81 near 7 eleven and suggested that we go in and get money and took a cab to esplanade. hah, siak uh prangai. good thing amira had a very good memory. she remembered the buildings around it and it reminds her of last year national day. while walking, i got bored so i shouted in this very high pitch that two guys, 50 steps in front of us turned back. haaah. we found the building and walk towards it, and yeay we did reached our destiny.

we were walking on this longgg walk at the padang, and BOOM! fireworks! welcoming us! haah ok not! we find it cool cause once we reached, in a sudden there was a firework. went to the rooftop, played James Bond and True or Dare. we talk too much and find it boring, we decided to go down. we watched this band performance and then back home.

ohh yes, yanaa and me scored 10. you know, i know. haah, but still first part is the best. :D

and other thing, should have gone to sentosa! there's a beach party which actually the guys who followed us to vivo are gg to sentosa for a party and so does Khai! goddamn it. it could have been heaven sia there. hah! :D

ytd went to tapac at tangjong pagar with bella and kak dhidi. coincidentally bella and me wore white jeans and black tee! haha i just don't know why i'm too excited about that. we went there to teach the sriwana dancers our Geylang Serai dance steps. every time we went there, confirm got discussion or someone who is deaf. haha. okay, im happppppyyyyyy!

anw, can't wait for tmr! i'll be gg out with amira, yanaa, aini and ain to vivo. like atlast, im out somewhere instead of rotting at home.

this one is so random. my phone bill. it's been sucha long time since i heard my mum nagging abt my phone bill. my phone bill used to be over $100. i'm using 2-year plan which i should be only need to pay $30 per month. oh yes, my mum said that my phone bill this month was $30 and she said that i increased. i was surprised that i could used the phone to that low amount. then mum said last month was $29. i told mum that it was only a dollar difference, then she shut the conversation by saying, "Still, I'm the one who's paying."

i woke up in the morning due to my mum's loud crying. i got panicked and thought that my sister, sarah, was kidnapped and the stranger asking money from my mum. i know it's weird but i thought of that because the night before i didn't saw sarah at home. but the truth was, my aunt in jb passed away..

i was totally shocked because it was unexpected and i felt that it was too early for her to go. i felt bad and sinful because she was the most unfavourite aunt i had. my sisters and i hate her naggings, advices and whatever that has got to do with her. she sometimes cleaned up my house, and also cooked for my family but i never felt appreciated about that. i find that her cleaning up is just a minor touch and her cooking in my kitchen is just making the kitchen looks like a canteen kitchen.

once i reached the mosque, i look at the dead body covered with white cotton up to her eyes. at first there wasn't any reaction of me, but then tears rolled down my cheeks non-stop. i felt really sinful after all this while i think of her. i lifted up the cloth that covered up her face. i wipe my tears, kissed her forehead and said "im sorry". i was shivering when i kissed her forehead. i kept on thinking that saying sorry to a dead person was way worse that saying sorry to a boyfriend. because of one thing for sure, you can't expect that they will forgive you. it started to rain and i kept praying few surah for her and also prayed that the rain will stopped so it will be easier for her to be buried. i felt sorry for my grandmother who is at the age of around 75 crying like hell and can't believe that her daughter who is at aged of 57 had left first before she does.

once we reached the cementry, she was already buried. i didn't had the chance to see them lift her down. i left the place with a low heart and hope that she will find her husband in heaven. we all went back to her house and felt really sad for her because her house was under renovation but she left before the whole house is done. her five children felt really down as their mum passed away just like that without even having any sickness or something. i felt really sad for her youngest child who is getting married next year, didn't get the chance to have her in his wedding ceremony.

as for now, i felt like a very sinful person and hope that i appreciate every little thing a person has done for me eventhough i might dislike them. her face still plays around my mind till now.

semoga kuburmu dicucuri rahmat.

[hah, its a website makeover my sister done for me. thats a really heavy makeup but i like the eye part. k, i wanna cut bangs.]

k, i did not attend ptm. mr jay lim asked and i just told him that my parents will be coming on saturday. padahal asl boleh, tak conferm.

i love today. i had dance practice at 1pm to 3pm. Geylang Serai dance item is really fun! i actually could remember back the dance steps. we didnt have the umbrellas as a prop so we used water bottles instead. pretending they are umbrellas. i really agree why we should be very super duper mentel for this dance. kate GEYLANG MAH! at 3+pm, i wanted to attend f&n remedial straight right after dance pract finish. but then had a call from papa asking me to bring his make up bag to kfc 888. i take this opportunity again to attend f&n late. papa blanja around 10 ppl kfc. thanks alot papa! oh and bella and me gg to Forever Makeup Academy! yeay, thats what i didnt attend last yr when papa asked to.

back to f&n at 430pm. again, i did not do my coursework, but played fb and this addictive game darwin suggested. home with yanaa and saw alot of "aceh" people. lol. i was being moody on the way back home. but then just now i felt happy! k random. my feelings are very weird this few days.

i wanted to cry and i did.
tears rolled down my cheeks.
i just missed _.

but then, im HAPPY back!
BIG SMILE! (:

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