im 17 and young. i frown most of the time. im not any famous girl to bitch about.

someone's birthday is tomorrow.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QHAIRAH!

it was the last day of school for the week, i don't know why i couldn't concentrate on maths lesson even though there is mdm haslina. welcome back anw, i do miss your teachings and get well soon!

after recess was physics. i bet with ivan on one question we did on this test paper. it was about sin i over sin r thingy about reflection/refraction topic. i was so confidence that the ans would be D and ivan says the ans is C. we debate until he said we bet $2. if u guys know this chapter, if its air over medium, it is sin i over sin r. teacher was busy explaining while i explain to him why is the ans D. he realised he was wrong and took out $2 note from his wallet and gave it to me. i wasn't expecting it actually but thanks. however, when we start to listen properly to teacher's explanation, he said he still got a chance. the question wrote "air over liquid". that means it would be sin R over sin I. damn it sia! the ans is C and i gave him back his $2 and didn't gave him any $2 from my own pocket money. haha. then zhe liang heard about it and wanted a bet with me by asking a qns, "how long is my cock?" i answered, "12cm". he said, "wrong. 2 cm." ivan said "yes, 2 cm but very thick and fat." HAHAHAHAHA! okay tak perlu.

night, went to west coast with sister and boyfriend, had mutton chop! yummy but now my lips are red -.-" i can't wait for this saturday to help papa groom his little dancers at taman warisan. bella will be following and im really happy about it. its been sucha long time we went out together(;

[Bella, Nani, Me, Atiqah]

this are the people i really miss since the last time we spent time together. today is the very first time we went to school together. we came from different classes, but malay dance makes us bond. after syf was like the stop for us to meet each other. i miss our gossiping, dancing, singing, crying, laughing, whatever we done during our KL trip together! to bella, cheer up babe! ;)

school was always like normal. we had temperature taking exercise, and our first period, history was cancelled. atlast, during recess time i get to eat lontong. ive been craving for it since monday. ok random. english was fun. i think i got motivated by myra. she is really a good girl which i totally respect!

to yanaa, im seriously happy and at the same time sad. i hope you know which is right and which is wrong. may god shows you the right way.

[i love this people]

Remember to give kasih sayang to your blog
- Hidayah

hidayah told me that i must spare some time for blogging. i've have not been online or fb for days, thanks to the no network connection! i've been rotting at home, and not even studying. -.-

well, on thursday, i went to amira's house and we practice cooking for our f&n practical exam. one of our both dishes need to be bake, but she don't have an oven, so yeah we did not even practice that one particular dish. it was funny that while we were cooking, we listen to jiwang songs. haaah pathetic sia.

friday, must be a good day. the examiner for our practical exam did not turn up. so miss lee was the examiner for the day! i started real well at first and trying to keep my table clean all the time. but then i screwed up when i'm still doing the first dish while others has already at their second dish. we need to cook 3 dish and finish everything including wash up for 2hr 15mins. "We should just do this and get over it!" said amira. oh and did i tell you it was for N level? haah jyeah. but whatever it is, i'm done for sure.

so after we finish our practical exam, i joined fandi and rahmat. we played soccer after waiting for rahmat to give his shit out in the toilet. lol. playing soccer with the lower sec freak me out actually. cause even though they're small and young, they are strong boys. look, i played soccer after i finished cooking. haha! tak senonoh. back home with fandi, matin and this sec 3 boy which i don't know the name and don't think i've ever seen him for the past two years.

saturday was a bore. i slept real early the night before at about 930pm which made me woke up at 8am in the morning. watch Seeds of Chucky, and my first sister face looks similar to Chucky's wife. hahaha. their round face, their dimples and their eyebrows. my sister's eyebrows used to be thin during her minahs time. oh and Dan used to called me at night, it's been 3 weeks since he last called me. till today, he did called me! hah, just miss talking random stuffs with him.

looks like this is long post, goodnight everyone!

Labels: exams.

today i had a performance with 6 malay dancers at cwp. it was for recycling stuffs? we are proud of ourselves for having only 3 practices in choreographing our own steps and formation for half part of the dance. thanks to those who came down to support. and to Afiqah, cheer up! you need a good rest for your own good! we'll be missing your presence!

ohh and this is soo random. my mum just came back from cold storage and bought so many fruits. there are two types of grapes(green&purple), a yellow watermelon, banana, a packet of durian, a packet of papaya and a pineapple. weird huh? kononnyer makan buah boleh lead to healthy diet lah tuh. -.-"

[this is how i look in school]

miss lee is chasing me for f&n coursework. damn it lah. it feels like getting chase by a loan shark. i know i'm doing my work as slow as possible cause that's what i am. for this week, serious i have no time. sorry cher! plus practical exam is also next week! i'll be dead.


school was normal today. we only have a period of f&n which most of us was relieved about. the following period was that we need to do International Friendship Day thingy. as today is friday, stall no 2 will always be having a very very long queue due to the best plus sedaaaaaap(!) nasi briyani they sold. sometimes, half way queue terus dah habis. no stock. but today amira and i were lucky enough we got to eat it!(:

there was an assembly in the hall. the 7th batch exco are stepping down, so welcome aboard 8th batch exco. this year, there is a also exco cca. so yeah, congrats everyone especially NADROCK and Matin Holmberg! had a short dance pract, will be having performance this sunday at cwp. met yanaa after that and we start revising our maths. haaah. probability is a disaster lah babat!

Happy Belated Birthday Atikah! Happy Birthday Ivan!

I've upload SYF pictures on facebook. But those picture's are only from my hp, there's a whole lot more from Papa's Jay Manuel camera :D We won silver award, and that's quite a satisfaction for me eventhough our aim was gold. Next, it will be another grateful performance at rp for the 10th year anni. Can't wait for that.

Mid year is coming soon. The date is super nice which is one day after my birthday. Baik pahh? Nevermind, I don't really mind about birthday this year. Back to midyear, I'm so not prepared. Notes are everywhere but I less revise them or even to touch them. I don't feel of going to sec 5. I want to, but seems so hard for me to in effort. Futhermore, my rate are just borderlines. I don't even bother to improve it. I heck care with F&N coursework and give a shit to chemistry. I will never listen to Ms Lim whenever she teach and will daydream instead. History can never be a pass for me. I will only pretend I understand when I actually don't. Seems so much for me to study. Gosh. I can say I wanna study hard, but these words are all a minute or two.

i'm no longer happy like i used to.
i'm no longer hyper like i used to.
i'm no longer excited like i used to.
i'm no longer energetic like i used to.
i'm searching through where all these has gone to..

well yeah today i didn't attend school. i went out and at around 130pm i made my way to woodlands back. change and went for dance pract. ahhh tmr is the day man! and guess what? our school is the last to perform tmr, which means other schools will be watching! oh and cikgu iswani says the sec 4s get to perform for 10th year anni! yeayyyy! super duper excited even though it will be near prelims. after pract, went to fork&spoon then back home. all the best dancers! today i'll be sleeping alone! yeay! hah, random.

[continuous photos of kirana seni from bella hp]

[won't be going to school on monday due to some reasons]
[won't be sitting in class on tuesday due to SYF!]

how fun, but i'm so gonna miss maths lesson which i actually don't want to. i had enough of miss chia low-standard teaching. i wonder why she has to be the one who taught up the hard topic which i wanted mdm haslina instead. i bet i'm gonna miss the class surroundings for two days. The dirty talks, the upskirts guys, the cracking up jokes with mr tan and oh yeah, i'm gonna miss my boyfriend, mr goh :D

so today, after madrasah went to shida house then met and slack with yas for awhile. i know he wanna sound sarcastic with me due to _, but i kenakan him balik. and to _, i won't be falling for this old time tricks. what a psycho!

i'm really nervous for tuesday. i hope all of us work on together and give our extreme best. i'll still go for malay dance pract as usual tmr at 3pm. after syf, i still wanna do performances especially our school 10th year anni at rp. it's gonna be a musical, all the performing arts in one. how cool right? i know.

ahhhhh. i'm out of words. bye.

had malay dance pract in the morning.
our clothes are done, accessories baik punyaa.
back to nani's crib and watch Som Tum.
home then to rp for show.





























i wanna perform for 10th year anniversary at rp lah pantat.

school was normal as usual.
but f&n period was so so not the time for me.
i'm stuck at planning and don't even make the effort to do it properly.
practical exam will be in like 2-3 weeks? -_______-
since i'm soo bored, i made such a very random poem.

Im feeling so dizzy
Feels like punching Miss Lee
I don’t wanna continue coursework
Its feels like breaking up with a jerk

Amira here is sitting beside me
She gave me a sip of her chrysanthemum tea
We both sat like a doggie
Snap! Miss Lee caught a pict of our booty

Now the time is 248
Damn, why f&n always finish late
Sitting here, typing things out
Finish things up then teacher will let us out

i know the poem doesn't make sense at all.
but this is what happen in class, so i summarise it into a poem.
don't mind the second part about the "doggie" and "booty".
Amira and I sat on the chair somehow like doggie position(haha), and Miss Lee took a picture of our butt and then show it to us.
she told us to sit properly.
haha, tak senonoh betol.

after f&n, straight i went to dance pract.
gosh, days went by soo fast.
it's already april and SYF is just next week, Tuesday, 7th April.
damn, to me it's like just 60% good.
i'm just too nervous for it.
oh and the clothes is super vogue and we have crown!!
yeay, a butterfly princess for a day!

as usual, after dance meet matin and fandi.
went to 883 and bought bubble tea.
went to separated ways then i accompanied fandi at the bustop and home.

Labels: frustated?