im 17 and young. i frown most of the time. im not any famous girl to bitch about.

The green runway is this Sunday and I'm freaking nervous I tell ya.
Let's put this way, we done it for FUN and for a little experience as "designers".
But if we DO get to the semi-final, that's not bad afterall.
Schools that participated in this competition are only from the North zone.
We done with the clothing except for the accesories.

I had enough.
Maybe I only know you for a very short time.
And that is why I don't really know you.
Maybe you've been influenced by your friends.
I never ever wanted you to lie to me, I just want you to be truthful.
There is no use for me to scold you now if you've been lying to me.
I've tried to understand that you'll be busy with your soccer match/training but it seem that you betrayed my trust.
See, I know you was on the phone with some else, and now then you told me that you was on the phone with Aida or whatever the girl name is.
If I didn't call and asked you few questions, you wouldn't have told me the truth.
I know you are a good guy, but with bad attitude.
Nobody is perfect.
Till now, then I think you should go for Akidah.
And Akidah, if you're reading this, you have success in your plans for being such a desperado to get Saiful.
Now, you can have him and do whatever you want with him.
His no longer mine. Go last long with him.
Oh ya, since you did said that he was a "jantan besarkan puki jek", I guess it was quite true afterall.
You also did said that I'm also the same, "besarkan konek jek".
Hmm, hope that will happen to you too.
Cause you on the way getting him.
He'll fuck you and then your both your love will grow because he believe that love grow more after getting fuck.
I'm sure you wanna last long with him.
Takecare ehhk(:

Ika, sorry if I wrote the bad things about your closest cousin.*

The school paid for us the tickets.
All of us gathered under the blk opp the school while waiting for Cikgu Iswani and the bus.
The show was great!
And these kids are wwayyyyyy soo much better than Tech Whye Sec musical show.









Both Nad just love Papa Joji!


Let's pull each other shawl.


Shot 1.


Shot 2.


Shot 3.


Shot 4. - All together, who wore the best?




Popeyes!

Im coating the SKITTLES sweets using nail polish to avoid ants.


These SKITTLES are arranged on the suspenders.


Colourful straw hearts.


These are all Li Mei collection, and she gave me ALL.


Malek came to give a helping hand.


Number 4 as in FAWEsome.


E stands for EVER.


Together you'll get EVER FAWESOME.


This is the back part. The school skirt is altered to a super duper mini skirt and its fcuking tight! Anybody dare to wear this skirt to school?

I couldn't be much more happier today.
After mother tongue class, Ika & Izzaty surprised me.
They gave me a dress from Outfitter Girls which both of them had.
They put it in a box and a photo of us together.
It was soo sweet that I cried.
It's also because I thought and felt that this year gonna be the last year with them.
Yet, I'm wrong.
I was promoted to sec 4!
I wanted to shout but I couldn't.
I wanted to cry but I couldn't.
Everything was just unexpected.
Thank god for hearing my hopes, for answering my wishes.
Now, I made a promise to really study hard next year.
I just don't want to have the regret feeling anymore!
To add on, we had spring cleaning after getting our results.
Good thing I had the mood and fun to clean the classroom.(:

To Atikah & Shafika, don't give up. I'm sure enough u guys can do a better one than this year. We will always care for both of you and will still sit on the same table in the canteen during recess, ok? Never give up.
Also to Bella, I really love her today and gonna miss her this holiday.
She was soo strong that she hugged and swing me few rounds after knowing that I promoted.
Lol, mcm hindustan.

We have to buy a new skirt next year Izzaty, this is short!


The three bear are Me, Ika & Izzaty. On the right is Saiful(:


How sweet.


This was very touching and totally made me cry.


Very hardworking yknow.






The class cleaners!


All clean up. This class will be full of memories, full of laughter, full of anger, full of love, full of cries. Time flies soo fast time year. Goodbye 3 Dynamic.

I'm left with less than 24 hours, i guess.
Nothing can be changed.
I really could feel the connection between me & the teacher.
I'll be fcuking speechless if I'm retaining.
My name is already on the list.
Yes, my name is in the list.
But haven't confirmed.

Total of 9 NA students retained.
15 express students gg down to sec 4 NA next year.
Damn it, there will be NO 4 caring class.
And I don't know if i had the choice to retain or go 4 tech.

Truly, deep in my heart, I'm really sorry mum that I've been rude to you for the past few days, for this whole year. I know I've changed, a lot. I'm sorry I've disappointed you in many ways. I've never had the courage to speak up to you my thoughts and feelings. I tried to control myself and understand you more, but I just couldn't. I made a promise to myself to improve on my studies after knowing my results for mid year, but now, I've failed. I couldn't give the best for my End of year too. I've added stress to your life. And yes, I still remember the first day of Hari Raya, you told me that I'm useless. I've got no ability. Well I guess every mum words are true. Yet, it's true enough. I'm sorry once again..

Not to forget, Amira & Siddiq. My dearest bestfriend and brother. To Amira, I know you upset because of me. I'm sorry if I'm leaving you for the years onwards. I'm sorry to say that maybe this year would be the last year I'm having the closest things to do with you. To Siddiq, you've taken very good care of me and I really appreciate it. You gave me the care and concern, the love and the understanding. I know you tried to help me in my studies but I failed to give you good marks. I couldn't stop crying in class not just because of family, but because of both of you. I couldn't bear leaving my closest dearest person in my life..

Labels: a fish that is left on the land.

It's the second time we raya-ing.
I don't really have the mood.
I mean, not as excited as last week.
Maybe probably because we started late and didn't finish up the houses.
Plus I'm tired for not getting enough sleep and rest.





Extra 2 ppl in the middle.